Justin Lane Janes - Online Memorial Website

This time of year is so difficult for me.  I knew I was pregant with you at this time 27 years ago.  I was pressured by friends and your father to abort you.  I did not want to do that, so I didn't.  I made the decision myself along with God to have you.  You see, God sent me a dream that I did abort you and I had the feelings of what that would be like.  You were meant to be.  You enhanced my life and so many other people Justin.  You were a gift from God.  You touched so many lives in your short 20 years on earth, and still continue to thouch lives.  You will NEVER be forgotten.

I miss you so much during summer. You're all I think about when I go down south. Especially when I go four-wheeling. You were the first person that ever took me. I remember being really scared and you let me sit up in front of you. That made me feel so safe. I remember all of the good times we had and I'm happy I do, but I wish that you could have been around to make more. I get so mad sometimes and wonder why you were taken from us so early. Why. I don't think you ever knew how much I loved having you around. You gave me something to look forward to when I came down because I knew there would be a new adventure waiting for me. Lighting smoke bombs in the back yard, burning Homiez, rolling tires up and down the mountain. I would give anything to have you, and all of that back. I'll catch myself crying sometimes when I look at your Kasey Kahne hat I have hanging on my wall. Having bonfires up on the mountain is when it really hits me that you're gone. After 6 years you would think it would be easier but it's not. Not for me. I just miss you a lot. I want you to be here with all of us. I love you so much Jug. 

25 years ago today my best friend came into this world.  Not a day has gone by since you left earth that I havent missed you.  Lord knows how many nights I've prayed just to have one more day with you.  I know in time that day will come.  So much has changed in my life since you left, I can only hope that you're still with me everyday. Justin, you were without-a-doubt the best friend I could have ever asked for.  You were selfless and caring, understanding, and never passed judgment.  You were the definition of what a true friend really is.  Having you in my life was a blessing...one that I am for every grateful for.  I know in my heart that I am a better person for knowing you and having you in my life in such a special way. 

I love you, Justin...more than words can say.  I will forever be awaiting the day that I get to see you again. 

Happy Heavenly 25th Birthday!!!! <3 <3 <3 <3<3

Everytime I drove over the Melbourne causeway bridge to and from Indialantic I aways looked at the places where you stopped to look for clams or whatever.  I always feel so close to you there.  I wonder if that is where you would be living and working.  

 Justin, I can remember how you would make me Valentine cards when you were little, how much I appreciated them because they were made with love.  Your brother now makes them for me and I appreciate them just as much.  You would give me adjustable rings and gaudy necklaces, believe me I still have all of them.  You gave them with love and was so proud.  I miss that ; I miss your smile, laugh and voice. Love you always, Mom