Thinking of you on what would have been your 28th birthday. I still think about you often and miss you all the time. Love you justin, I hope it's 5 oclock wherever you are.
I remember this day so well 27 years ago. You were born at 6:56 pm on a beautiful fall day. Born with the cord around your neck, but determined to live. Grandma, Tammy and Weez were all there to support me and you. That day changed me forever, for the better.
Hey Jug, Just thought I would tell you I'm thinking of you today. Sarah, Trina and Sarah's husband Matt just went back home from Michigan. Sarah just had her baby, his name is Jonah Matthew. You would probably laugh at seeing Sarah as a momma because it's an odd sight, but we all know she'll do great. I keep telling her she has herself a mountain boy now, and I hope he turns out to be a heathen just like you two were. I'm gonna do all that I can to be to Jonah what you were to me. I'll take him on adventures all around the mountain and I'll make sure he knows exactly who you are and how great you were. I wish so much that you could be here to meet the little guy. Sarah will make you proud. Love you so much.
This time of year is so difficult for me. I knew I was pregant with you at this time 27 years ago. I was pressured by friends and your father to abort you. I did not want to do that, so I didn't. I made the decision myself along with God to have you. You see, God sent me a dream that I did abort you and I had the feelings of what that would be like. You were meant to be. You enhanced my life and so many other people Justin. You were a gift from God. You touched so many lives in your short 20 years on earth, and still continue to thouch lives. You will NEVER be forgotten.
I miss you so much during summer. You're all I think about when I go down south. Especially when I go four-wheeling. You were the first person that ever took me. I remember being really scared and you let me sit up in front of you. That made me feel so safe. I remember all of the good times we had and I'm happy I do, but I wish that you could have been around to make more. I get so mad sometimes and wonder why you were taken from us so early. Why. I don't think you ever knew how much I loved having you around. You gave me something to look forward to when I came down because I knew there would be a new adventure waiting for me. Lighting smoke bombs in the back yard, burning Homiez, rolling tires up and down the mountain. I would give anything to have you, and all of that back. I'll catch myself crying sometimes when I look at your Kasey Kahne hat I have hanging on my wall. Having bonfires up on the mountain is when it really hits me that you're gone. After 6 years you would think it would be easier but it's not. Not for me. I just miss you a lot. I want you to be here with all of us. I love you so much Jug.
